These past few months I feel like the wind got sucked from my sails. Damsel has become impossible for me. I don't have the health for weekly parties and events and Facebook blacklisted me so my reach dropped substantially and no one was ordering. I adore the company with a passion but the biggest online networks include non-lethal self defense in their anti-weapon agenda and that just has made Damsel beyond hard.
The junior league I was working with became worse than high-school with the teenaged drama, name calling, and backstabbing. So I walked away from my board position as the rule we try to live by is keep things as stress free as possible since the stress makes my fms worse.
I also haven't improved like we hoped. We think the climate is part of the issue. We spent a week in Wyoming and for those few days I was almost pain free. So we are hoping to find work out of the desert.
I am homeschooling Bug this year. Some of her group developed some awful risky behavior and I don't want her immersed in that. I honestly think that here in Vegas the kids are exposed to so much vice they experiment even younger than other places.
I've decided to focus on my writing again and on my passion for preparation and all the other great things I used to write about. I want to get back to reading my favorite blogs and connecting with the friends I've been neglecting as I tried to do Damsel.
So hopefully this is me climbing out of a dark place and getting back to the things I love. Sure missed you all.
Kim - if it;s possible, there are many of us out here that will reach in to the dark place, lend you a hand and help you out of it. it sounds like you have been through a bunch of crap lately. yes, try to stay away from stress and get back to the things you love! welcome back!
ReplyDeleteyour friend,
kymber