Blog roll and hello!!

I finally updated our blogroll. I added a ton of people so check it out. I also am alive just been very sick and am still recovering. I finally pulled it together and have an appointment with a new Rheumatologist so hopefully we get to fixing things. Phew!! I should be back to posting regularly unless I have a health setback.

Finding my place!! A great post up about this community!

Over on A Girl And Her Gun is a great post titled "An Open Letter To The Anti-Gun Folks". She gets it!! She took what I feel and she put it all out there. I swear she and I are sister's of the soul sometimes because she so beautifully can write out thoughts and feelings I have had. I never really have fit into a group. I am too "wild" for a lot of LDS women, too young for a lot of Mommy groups (though that is finally changing now with Monkey's stuff but among the mom's of Bug's friends I am always the youngest), too conservative for most of the women my age. Not sure why I haven't found a place among writer's but that probably is due to my shyness.  Even here sometimes I think "Do I belong here?" then I post about a worry or fear or struggle and where my words would be met with silence in the past they now are met with help, comfort, guidance, and understanding. Never have I known so many willing to lend an ear or a kind though to someone they have never met or offer to meet and help if they can until I entered this community. I can be a depressed basket case some days and when it feels like I am so very alone someone will post a comment that brightens my day. You guys are all amazing. The blog post by AGAHG is beyond description in its beauty. Read it.

Awesome Give-A-Way by an awesome gal!

That also means I have to admit some things. *sniff sniff*

First to the awesome. A Girl and Her Gun is doing something amazing!!! Indeed I am in awe of her and those who are now joining her to add ammo to the pot.

Details are (taken directly from her blog):

The prize:

I will pay $300 towards any reputable beginning self defense shooting course in the United States.

Who Can Enter:

Any female who is interested in taking the next step in learning how to defend herself in the event that she may need to. I would really prefer it be a new shooter that hasn't had any formal training to this point.

How To Enter:

Leave a comment specifically saying you would like to enter or email me at agirlandhergun@gmail.com subject Give-A-Way.

This will run from January 3, 2012- February 3, 2012 at midnight and must be redeemed by September 2012.

On February 4, 2012, I will put the names into a "hat" and pick one.  That person will have until September 2012 to register for a class and when she does, I will send the $300 to the school/course/instructor.

It can not be redeemed for cash and can not be used for any other purpose.  If the winner does not register for a course by September 2012, the prize will be forfeited and the drawing will be redone with the remaining names.

I would appreciate you're help in spreading the word. I think there in only one official entry right now, so the odds of winning are pretty darn good.

I am very excited about this and you all will be doing me a huge FAVOR, if you let me be a part of doing something positive for you!

Now to my admission. I have not taken any in depth classes. I could blame a lack of funds but if it was something I pushed for my guy would find a way. To bare it all I am just a coward. I hate meeting strange people. Hubby says I am borderline agoraphobic sometimes. I have made some great online connections through this blog but I am a hard person to connect with I guess. I am not easy to fit in any pretty little box. I am LDS but I can cuss like a sailor when upset. I have developed a love for guns and planning and survival but I couldn't show you how to start a fire with nothing and I have the health of a woman triple my age. I am the oddball and I am used to that. Maybe too used to it. Maybe I have let myself become so used to being solitary and a homebody that I don't know what else to be. Maggy and Gracie are my closest friends and both live hours upon hours away. I am lucky to see Gracie every couple years and it is approaching that with Mags now. So my social buddy is my husband. He is my best friend but he is also my only friend. He tells me to go out but I really just hate it and the stress ends up making me sick so I just gave up trying. It would be nice to have a girlfriend in the area who likes to shoot, lol. That would be neat. Maybe even if I don't win this give a way it is time I see what is out there. I may be trying to take my safety more in hand but that doesn't mean all people are bad right?