I think the time has come to reclaim myself. I've been sick for a month and that has meant that everything suffered. I haven't written. I feel awful.
Well I finally went to the doc (After TinCan and JW both gave me some lectures! ;)) and got on antibiotics. I scheduled an appointment with the new doc. I am slowly making steps.
I realized though that the confidence I have been building doesn't seem as evident to others. I look in the mirror and think, "She is not the beautiful woman I think she should be." I have put off things I did for myself to take care of other people. I stopped getting my nails done to save money. I stopped eating the foods I need and want to eat because the live-in folk don't like my healthier meals. So I am changing that. I am going to make the foods that are good for me. If they don't like chicken they can eat something they make. If they don't like salad they can make their own meals. If they don't like cheap cereal (gotta save somewhere, lol) they can get a job. I need to feel that I look as beautiful outside as I think I am. Make sense?
I am looking forward to really retaking myself. I want to be the best mom and wife I can be. So I plan to dig back in to the book, to shoot more, to pamper myself with the food I need and the fun things I like.
I might even save for a few gun courses not just one. I really do like the idea of getting certified to at least help out at the range near me.